Why do I suddenly feel I'm inside a musical?

As I open my eyes to the sound of the television that has been on for the whole night, I feel something creep slowly on my face. It was the last thing I expected that day but then, it's been such a long time that I didn't even try to stop it. I woke up with the most unnervingly pleasurable and, dare I say it, sweetest smile I have had for a long time. I didn't even care what time it was or whether it was still dark out or why I was mysteriously naked when I distinctly remember putting on clothes the previous night. It was that kind of happiness, of pure ecstacy and genuine glee that made me say to myself, "Man, it ain't so bad after all."

I didn't know why and I didn't want to ruin it by finding the reasons for it. The smile on my face, bordering on giddy schoolboy grin, was impossible to remove. I did everything, take a shower, brushed my teeth, shave and dress up with a "goddamn-what-is-this-shit" smile splattered across my face, while in between, suddenly jumping up with my fist to the air for no particular reason but simple, pure and honest joy.

And I realized, that everything seemed a lot tolerable when you're happy. My lunch tasted better, the air smelled nicer, there were less cars on the road, you notice other people's smiles a lot more than you usually do and everything seems to be dancing to an unknown tune that keeps playing in your head. Over and over. Without it getting old.

I didn't want to walk to class. I wanted to skip merrily to class. But then again, I might be mistaken for some freak. But, fuck it, who cares when you're this ecstatic, right? It's the feeling of being a 5 year-old again, still innocent and fresh and amazed at every little thing life has to offer.

And I so desperately wish that everyone feels this as soon as possible. And when you do, don't ask how or why you're this happy. Just relish the feeling and don't force down that smile because you'll just look like you ate a lemon. You just can't win so just fly with it. The reasons are there, don't worry.

And in the silence and loneliness of your bed, it'll probably dawn on you like that. The who and the how and the why for all this you're feeling will reveal itself, if you're lucky. But if not, don't sweat. If there's one thing this feeling will teach you is that it's not the end of the world. The reasons are there, they're always there. But when you wake up again with that strange feeling, when your heart beats a little bit faster and your mouth is strangely curved upward and whatever indifference or apathy there is in your body is left to yesterday, don't ask why first. Savor it in.

Your reason, whatever or whoever she is, will meet you again in your dreams tonight.